Clarkson said that she was “so embarrassed” of her emotional breakdown on Idol.
The star was the first winner of the popular TV show in 2002. She returned to the show late February this year to perform her new single “Piece by Piece”. Audiences saw an emotional Clarkson, who had to stop a number of times between her performance.
The Star spoke to Ellen DeGeneres about her experience, by saying “I came off almost in tears for a different reason because I was so embarrassed, I was like ‘Oh God this is my final thing on Idol and I could not hold it together’.
“I was proud of myself for making it as far as I did. My husband knows me well. I came off stage and he was like don’t ruin it. Don’t ruin the moment. Because I was like ‘it was so embarrassing’.”
The star blamed her pregnancy hormones for her intense emotional performance.
“My one-year-old is running around the same hallway as I was 19,” she explained. “He (Brandon) was there my little girl was there my little boy was like turning circles in my stomach. It was like nostalgic. It was the last time I was gonna be on Idol and it’s ending. I was screwed from the get-go – emotionally, I was on a slip and slide from hell.”
The track was about her own father leaving her and how she found her husband and started a family. The emotional song, even left the Judge Keith Urban in tears.